two times. its happened twice. once on a very large scale, the second time, not so much. but it still hurt pretty bad. i wonder why something that never fully developed into anything “real” actually felt like it was something that had meaning. why do i let myself fool myself!? lol. *sigh*.
why am i so..whats the word here? gullible? susceptible? foolish? simple? all of the afore mentioned words would probably suffice! lol. but back to the question, why? i honestly dont know the answer.
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i need to call someone up and get some advice/encouragement
